Rafe

I seem to post more about this wee guy than my other two fellas but those that know Rafe will understand why... I always say to my boys that I love them all the same but for different reasons, and Rafe's reasons are many and varied. So tomorrow (Friday) my Rafe starts school and of course, I'm worried, excited, traumatized, nervous...like every parent with a child starting school tomorrow is.

I had a bad birth with Rafe and my hospital midwife didn't help, she was grumpy and told me off for being too loud (!!!) and pathetic (my words). She also hapened to be Olympian Sarah Ulmer's mum, and even though I'm a fan of hers, I certainly wasn't of her mum! So good labour turns bad and I'm off to surgery where the lovely doctors handed our Rafe to The Husband. My arms weren't working (although my thirst was - I would have killed for a fanta (!) - with Will it was "Jungle Juice" - do they even make that any more?). And eventually our beautiful boy made it back to Sarah Ulmer's grumpy mother's arms. She then did the most amazing thing that redeemed all her grumpiness in a heart beat.

She placed my baby boy cheek to cheek with me. Instantly as I felt his dry, warm and baby soft skin connected to mine a little electric current zizzed between us. In that moment our love story began.

So you can see that it's not easy giving him up, even if it is for a few hours each day to a new exciting world.

He's just my Rafe.

Thanks Kate

Ok, ok, it's been long enough. Time to get moving again. Time to catch up. Time to start. I know it's been forever, and maybe I've lost a few of you while on my summer "holiday" but I haven't felt inspired, witty or even slightly interesting. A quick kick up the bum from a friend does wonders to get over myself. So hi y'all. I'm back.

I think I'll post a few quickies to catch up a bit - I've had a nice old December and January and have bits and bobs to share. I think last year I posted some goals for myself, I'm not going to try and find them coz I know I only achieved a few, but 2009, I'm going to keep it simple. Just 3 goals.

1 Launch this bloody website for goodness sake. YES I CAN. Just where it is going to happen is a bit of an unknown - NZ vs Aus...hmmmm

2. Write

3. Maybe earn some cash - just in case The Husband is one of my remaining readers.

There you go. Nice and simple.

I'm also going to walk 100kms for charity over a couple of days, educate, nurture and inspire my boys (and myself). And continue to stay on my diet coke absitnence wagon. 3 weeks and 3 days. I'm also keen to encourage a greater two way relationship with you guys. I know I'm not the only one with a yarn or two to share.

But for the moment...I'm going to get my wee Rafe to school for the first time tomorrow with the minimum of tears from both of us. That's a big enough achievement by itself.

Come back and visit soon. I promise I'm back. And thanks for waiting. Hope you're all happy and healthy!